Listening to the voices within

You don’t have to get it right every single time.

While on my healing journey, I learned just how afraid I am of making mistakes, and I realised it’s not the actual mistake that I’m afraid of, it’s how that mistake makes me feel. That sinking weight in my chest and stomach, that spiral of self-doubt, the echoes of proving my insecurities right, those are the things that trigger my anxiety surrounding making mistakes, not the actual logic of what went wrong.

I find that the logical and emotional sides of me are in constant communication. The logical voice tells me that there is a solution for everything, even the biggest and greatest problems or mistakes. It reminds me that there is a way out and I am not bound nor defined by any mistakes I make. This voice tends to ground me in times of stress, and I use that voice as an anchor when approaching new and uncomfortable situations. While I do honour the logical voice, and it sometimes feels like the logic and rational side of me wants all the attention, healing revealed to me that I must also honour the emotional voice, who reveals all my greatest fears and worries.

It can feel like it’s easier to lead with logic, it often feels easier and it fixes things, but emotions are just as important. They show us what needs care, not just what needs solving.

I think the greatest thing I ever did for myself was, rather than trying to suppress my fears, worries, and anxieties with my logic, I gave them a voice not as a means to lead me into a state of fear, but so I can understand it, so that I can learn about myself and my heart, and learn how to communicate with all the versions of me. Both voices, the one who believes she can do anything and the one who doubts that it is within her ability, are a part of me, both seeking to protect. I learned that whether I try to silence that voice or not, it will always be there. So rather than trying to suppress a voice or a version of me that exists, the question was: how can I make peace with them so I can walk through life in harmony with myself and not against myself?

Peace was never about picking a side and silencing the other, it was about integration and making room for all of me.

When I thought about the power of communication, I never considered that it all starts within. How do I give myself that same tender communication that I give to others? How do I ensure that even my greatest fears have a voice? Because as uncomfortable as those may be, you can’t heal what you don’t understand, and how can you understand if you don’t listen? There is no secret formula to finding or knowing yourself, but I do know listening is a great starting point.

Communication isn’t just about what you say to yourself, it’s also about listening to what your heart responds with. It’s not just a monologue, it’s a conversation.

So wherever you are in your journey, I hope you know that you don’t have to get it right every single time. You just have to listen to all the voices within, the ones that shout all your praises and the ones that whisper doubts. Not because the doubts are true, but because you can’t address something by ignoring it. You don’t have to fight between logic and emotion, both can exist if you create space for them.

With all my love.